Bah

My body is not making any sense these days and it's frustrating. A few days ago I was down to 155 exactly and then I woke up this morning and I was almost 158, what's up with that? I no longer have my milk supply as an excuse as my milk has almost completely dried up and I am not full any more. I did go out on Saturday night and eat at Cafe Rio but I ate very little during the day so that I could have a bigger dinner and we shared a Rainbow slushee from Pace's for dessert and I have gained almost 3 pounds, what a bummer! I am hoping it is just extra water weight and will go away soon....here's hoping!

This week, healthy eating and exercise. I have to admit though, I am not 100% ready and focused to do this so I may not see results. Exercise I can do but the total healthy eating/counting calories etc. is not something I am totally committed to yet. Maybe in another week, we shall see.

Time to start working!

Well, it has now been 4 weeks since I had my baby and I think I've lost about as much as I'm going to without putting some exercise in the mix. I am also weaning from pumping and so my milk production is still around although lessening every day. However, once my milk supply diminishes, I will probably lose a pound since I still feel a little top heavy. I stopped pumping on my left side a few nights ago and yesterday I didn't pump at all. I do have a plugged duct which I'm hoping will stop hurting soon so I can really start to exercise. Until then, all I can pretty much do it walk because of the sore spots.

These past few days have been a little frustrating for me. I have eaten pretty healthy and eaten less than normal to help the weight loss and nothing has budged. In fact, I have gone up a pound from last week, probably due to the fact that I haven't pumped and I am somewhat full of milk.

Oh well, once my milk is gone and I can really start to exercise harder, I think I will see some progress. I was hoping to make it down 30 pounds and then have to work hard for the last 10 but I guess I will have to work hard for the last 15. That's okay, I will do it.

On another note, it feels really good to not feel hungry all the time. I find when I am eating a meal that I am full after eating just half which is great! It is really nice to be able to eat less and feel satisfied. Yesterday I had cereal in the morning, then a peanut butter sandwich on wheat bread and green grapes for lunch. I had 94% fat free kettle corn for a snack and then tator tot casserole with fruit for dinner. I did have a little no sugar added chocolate ice cream for a treat in the evening. I feel like I'm doing well and I'm on my way!

Going the other direction, finally :)

Well, my final weigh-in when I headed to the hospital to deliver was 180 pounds, which was a total of 38.8 pounds gained. Not too bad but I could've done better :) Well, I have lost almost 15 pounds now and I am still losing a pound or two a day which is nice since I'm pumping breast milk. At 6 weeks, I will see where I'm at and start pushing the weight loss then.

One day I'll update my other blog with pictures and my birth story.

Near the end weigh-in

This morning I weighed in at 180.2 which is 39 total pounds gained during this pregnancy. I am probably a little bit lower than this because I had already eaten half of my breakfast cereal but not much. I have a week to go from Monday so I'll probably stay around 40 pounds total. With this extra weight gain, I am excited to have the baby a week early so that my baby doesn't get too big. I am not the best eater and I feel it correlates with a big baby, especially when you eat too much sugar and simple carbs which are in my diet every day.

Here's to one more week! More importantly, here's to a new baby and no more Nausea!!

The End is in Sight!

Well, after much debate and discussion and weighing of feelings, I am probably going to opt to be induced a week before my due date. I am still nauseated every day, and since week 32, I have been experiencing some painful small contractions when I'm up and around, and starting this week, I have been getting them when sitting also. They are not regular and usually don't last more than a few hours, but are not so fun either. The doctor has been checking me and I am dilated to a 1 and thinning out and the baby's head is low but not really progressing more than that.

There are a few things that have helped in this decision. First of all, I have an end in sight and it's less than 4 weeks away, March 14th! Second, both of my 2 previous babies have weighed over 8 lbs and with gaining an extra 10 pounds with this pregnancy, I worry about a too large baby which could mean a more difficult delivery or potential c-section. 3rd, I am just ready to move on to the next phase and ready to have my body back. Lastly, my induction with Allison was so easy and the delivery was just perfect so I'm hoping that this will be the case with this baby boy too.

Now, I am kind of funny about deliveries. I think it is way more fun to go into labor and call your family all excited instead of having a set induction date where everything is planned. I know it's silly, but that's just me. Perhaps I will be induced with this one and then try for labor with my last one!

Well, here goes nothing!

Can't Sleep

So, this morning I woke up at 4:15 AM to use the restroom and after such vivid dreams, I can't get back to sleep. With such a busy day today, I'm sure I'll be struggling later but I don't know what to do. I lay in bed for 30 minutes with no luck.

Unfortunately, the reason I can't sleep is because my dreams were about delivering my baby, and then coming home to realize that I only lost 12 pounds after delivering, sad huh! The thought of having to lose nearly 30 pounds on my own was depressing but not true of course. This past weekend I have not craved any vegetables or fruits, nor really anything. The only thing I wanted was Chinese Food so we ordered take-out on Saturday night, overate, and now I'm going in to my doctor's appt this morning weighing 2 pounds more than last week. Silly mind won't go back to sleep now!

I also dreamed about visiting my neighbors who lived in a huge home the size of a castle. After walking around with my friend for about 10 minutes I realized that the house just went on and on but it was so beautiful. This home was around 30,000 sq. ft. instead of the measly 3,000 sq. ft. home I live in. It was a fun dream, but everything last night was so vivid that it is hard for me to get back to bed.

Anyway, those are my thoughts and random ramblings for now. Happy Valentine's Day everyone! Oh, and I am loving the weather!!

Can't I be Done yet?

Well, the more time that passes, the more ready I am to be done with this pregnancy. However, I still have 5 weeks to go and that seems like an eternity to me!

This pregnancy has been a little tougher than past pregnancies. With my first pregnancy, I never had trouble walking and never really waddled. I was able to walk with my husband until the day I delivered. I was perfectly fine going full term because I knew after that, I would have a baby to take care of for a very long time!

Then with my 2nd pregnancy, I started feeling some pressure on my pelvis about a month before I delivered and I was hardly able to walk the last month and even had to get those motorized carts at the store it got so bad. I kept hoping I would have the baby early starting at about 8 months, but no such luck.

Now, with this pregnancy, I have started getting painful little contractions when I'm up and about starting at about 32 weeks and I know they are not labor because they pretty much go away when I sit or lie down. I am however getting some pressure on and off again and my left leg is often sore and I have a hard time walking. Plus, I have some back pain which makes it hard to move sometimes too. I still have over a month and I am feeling really done. I need some lessons in enjoying the moment now and not keep wishing for the future to come more quickly.

Also, I have had a little bit more heartburn than past pregnancies. I never get it very bad and Tums takes care of it, but still, a little more than previous babies.

I am also still dealing with nausea on a daily basis. I can't wait until I just feel tired and not sick at the same time. Most days are okay but some days it still knocks me out and I have to rest and take a nap to deal with it. On those days that I can't seem to shake it, I do usually take a Zofran pill to help. It sure does help but then it makes me constipated so that's frustrating too.

I also feel a little more grumpy with this pregnancy. I haven't felt very emotional in past pregnancies but I have had down days a lot in the past few months. Perhaps it's having 2 other kids to care for that end up pushing my buttons including a little girl who really really likes her Mom and wants me to do more for her than Dad, even though he is willing. I can't wait for Timmy to start school, these kids are starting to go stir crazy, especially Tim! He's definitely ready to have some set structure to his days.

Well, I don't mean this post to be just a way to complain, but more to document what I'm feeling when so that I can compare it to any future pregnancies which should hopefully just be one more!

I'm close, and this little guy will be here before I know it! I just need to focus on eating well, exercising a little and staying positive :)