Hope

So, I haven't been great at doing weigh ins for the past few weeks because my mind has been somewhere else this past while.  The reason is I'm pregnant with my 4th child :)  However, this time around has not been a cake walk.  In fact, it's been quite the opposite with several scares and days of total anxiety.  Here, let me share my story.

I found out just over 4 weeks ago that I was expecting.  I was really surprised because I had taken a test a few days before that has always shown me early and it was negative.  But, that time of the month hadn't come yet so I took another test and just left it to do some cleaning and when I came back it was positive and I was truly shocked!

So, with all of my other pregnancies I have gotten morning sickness on the first day of week 6.  This time it came and went and no morning sickness.  Plus, all of my other symptoms lessened and I didn't really feel pregnant so I was worried about miscarriage and spotting.  Well, the dreaded day came just over a week ago Sunday, the 3rd.  I woke up Sunday morning and started spotting.  I immediately thought I was going to lose this baby with no other obvious symptoms and still no morning sickness (6 days late).  Of course being a Sunday, my only options were to wait until Monday or go into the ER.  I called the on call doctor and he told me either choice would be reasonable, but he also said if I was going to miscarry then it had already happened and going to the ER would be a long wait and expensive.  So, I decided to wait.

Talk about the worst day of my life.  I tried calling Justin over and over and he wouldn't answer.  I finally called him while he was in church and he finally answered and immediately went home and started to research miscarriage since we were sure it was coming.  Well, the spotting only lasted about 5 minutes (I know, not long but I still didn't know what was going on).  I stayed home from church in case anything started to happen and my sister came over to watch my kids and I took a nap since I was so tired from the stress and not sleeping well the night before.  I woke up and felt fine so she left and then my Mom came from Wales, UT.  She helped me with the kids and we even went to the McMurray Super Bowl Party but I wasn't in much of a party mood.

We came home and Timmy was complaining of a bad sore throat and Allie was coughing so hard, it was rough.  I let my Mom take care of my kids during the night and in the morning and I woke up to Timmy complaining about his throat and having a high fever.  I called my doctor and they told me 2 PM, are you kidding me?  Uggh.  This was however just the appt line for the whole bldg of doctor's so I finally got ahold of my personal doctor's office at 9:15 and they told me to just come in.  I went in and surprise, the baby was fine!  I still had so much anxiety that I couldn't really relax until later that day when it finally sunk in.  I think I was still just worried that something was still wrong.

Then Timmy went to the doctor and had strep throat, yippee.

Well, it was very helpful having my Mom there and Justin was so surprised when I called him with the good news.  On Tuesday I finally got the blessed/cursed morning sickness.  Not too bad, but there just the same thank goodness.Then I started spotting again on Thursday morning so back in I went.  Another ultrasound showed the baby was good and had grown again, right on track.  The doctor told me to take it easy and not stress too much since both times had shown doing fine.  Mikey also woke up on Thursday with strep throat and ear infection so this made 4 doctor visits during the week.  Well, Friday morning I spotted all morning into the afternoon but I tried not to worry.  Justin came home that afternoon and I took a long nap.

I went in again on Monday morning and once again, baby has shown growth and I could even see a division of head and body, pretty fun!  I asked my doctor about my chances of this baby making it full term and he said my chances are good although with bleeding, there is always a slight chance of miscarriage.  He also told me to come in weekly as long as I keep spotting.

So, I am trying to keep my life as stress free as possible and not even worry about gaining weight since I can't exercise much and I am starving all the time.  I have seen so many cute pregnant women lately who keep their cute skinny faces the entire time and I just poof up at the slightest weight gain, lame.  Oh well, here's to a healthy baby and a poofy pregnancy face.  I'll get my face back by the end of year maybe :)  Starting weight the day I found out was 139.8, just under 140 lol.  Today I think I'm around 143 so up about 3 pounds in 4 weeks.

Baby is due September 23rd.